Contractions

June 30
1:54 a.m.
Water just broke. Casey is on her way over. Soon thereafter we are going in to see the midwife.

June 29
7:53 p.m.
Everything stopped again shortly after this post. I finally broke down and cried. There are some (OK, a lot of things) over which I just don't have control. This is one of them.

It's now 8 p.m. and we are in between available childcare. My mom left a couple of hours ago and my sister is at least 3 hours away from here. I'll call some friends until I find someone who is available "just in case." It's hard for me to ask someone to be available knowing that it isn't likely, but I keep asking myself "What if this is it?"

I enjoyed my prayers this afternoon, during which I read two lines that touched me differently today. "... Thou has created me to know Thee and to worship Thee ..." and "I testify at this moment to my powerlessness and to Thy might ..." The first line reminded me of the blessing that is about to adorn my journey -- that my role as mother and caretaker for one of God's children is another way for me to learn about God and to worship Him. The second line reminded me that I am powerless and that there is a time for all things -- even this most-anticipated of times and wonders will unfold at just the right time.

So, still, we are waiting for that one time. And our one concern is our first son ... that he has loving care as we welcome his brother into our lives.

10:23 a.m.
After some rest, everything calmed down again. The baby and I got some much-needed sleep and I awoke this morning to subtle contractions. As I lay in bed listening to my Hypbirth CDs I noticed the contractions intensifying. They grew even stronger as I got up and dressed and have been regularly strong since then. So, here we are again, waiting to see what happens. I'd like for this to lead to the real thing today -- especially since my mom and Glen are here to play and love on Wesley right before this big life change.

June 28
After a few strong starts and stops, the contractions are finally three minutes apart for the last few hours.

I just had a hard time walking so I am hopeful that I will be calling a midwife tonight.

About to soak in the tub and get some rest.

Wish us luck.

I can't believe this is happening.